Monday, July 6, 2009

Yes...I am...Alive!

Long time, no post! To my devout readers, I apologize! hahahahaha...
Anyway, this past weekend I got to run a 10K up in Prescott with this cute girl!!!
It was a great trail run and I was very happy with my results. I had a personal best for time AND I took 2nd place for my age division! wahoo!!!!

I was pretty proud of myself!! Good results and I felt good! This was my first race since having my cute babe! (who was there to cheer me on!)

I have been thinking a lot about my body. I know that my weight is already down from having the baby, but I still can't fit into my old clothes. I still have love handles and a tummy that I am trying to get rid of. I am not entirely UNHAPPY with the way I look....but I am VERY self conscious. I guess that's not true...I am unhappy with the way my body looks. But why? Why am I constantly comparing myself with others. And yes, I did have a baby 3 1/2 months ago...but you see...I have a problem. I am INPATIENT. I want my "pre-baby" body back already.

But here's the thing. That "pre-baby" body took me 1 year to get! And I just realized that today. AND I didn't breastfeed my last baby and so I didn't have to eat MORE to make sure I had plenty of milk.

So, I NEED to be happy. Happy with myself. My body. My accomplishments. My BABY! Because as much as I LOVE to exercise, eat healthy, and run my little heart out!!! I have come to realize that getting that "pre-baby" body might take a little more time. Because what matters most RIGHT NOW is that cute baby laying down in the living room playing with her toys.

(I will do my best to keep posting food and workouts....just been crazy around here the last few weeks!!!)


Diane said...

my apologies for making fun of your so called 'tummy'. i take it back and understand that YOU can be unhappy too.. love you!

Diane said...

guess what i should say is, sorry i laughed when you said your stomach was FAT. not i made fun of you.
(i would never make fun)